Writing + Chemobrain = Not Priceless.

Chemo brain ... where to begin? I don't even know how to start this post except to say that chemo brain is very real and very much a part of my life. Sadly, pathetically, I can't remember much these days. Things from before treatment are easier to remember, but stuff that's happened in the last 30, 60, even 90 days? Sadly, most of my life since December of 2013 has been forgotten.
Chemo brain has adversely affected me and my writing. I read things that I've written and I get scared. I can't remember writing it or even thinking it. It is scary to try to pull on parts of my memory, wanting so badly to be able to remember certain events, only to draw a blank. I can't imagine how my sweet grandma Melva felt having been diagnosed with Dimentia. Memory loss is a very scary ordeal, indeed.
Along with the memory issues, I have a hard time concentrating. I can't multitask worth a lick anymore, either. Sniff. Sniff. 
Yet ... I am working on keeping better written notes, calendars,  and journals to better help myself when my brain can't find the event in question. This seems to help. I consciously work to stay on task, and I keep my tasks, conversations, and projects to a short, doable amount of time. All these little tricks are helping.
Regardless, I hope to start writing again soon. I honestly don't think it will happen before I take a real break from chemo, but who knows? Some days I feel so courageous, I go so far as to open a new word document. When it happens, I'm sure I'll be publicly expressing my joy ... loudly.
Until that day, let's keep reading. Shall we?